Hmmm...
Today I'm getting a little personal, really but not really!!! Lol, I tweeted earlier that my relationships with men can't seem to get past 3 months... Smh... I know!!!! In all honesty, I feel like I play my part from the gate, but when dealing with my emotions, I try hard to protect my heart from hurt. Who can I blame? Previously I have let people enter my circle of love and try to box me up, not knowing that my heart was pure and generous, they tried to erase the positive... I can admit that I may move a little toooo fast sometimes also,
but I'm not getting any younger and I wanna family one day, but I want the whole nine yards!
Family = Husband, children, crib, cars, financially stable, a chance to build that foundation I was raised in.
Unfortunately I do that with the WRONG individuals, I allow the opportunity of my circle to accept a person how they come, and I try to make US better. No man I have dealt with can say I did absolutely nothing to try and better our situation! I consider myself to be a ryder, if we need it and I can provide it I do, I pay those bills, I feed, I clothe, I cook, I fuck, I make love, I work, I'm smart, I continue to educate myself in ways of many, I'm a friend, A confidant, and I'm an excellent lover ;-), I know how I want to be treated and treat my man that way, but I get BORED really fast!!!!
I MEAN REALLY FAST!!!!!!!! LMAO
That's one problem I refuse to shake, because if in three months I can get bored with you, I know I can't take a lifetime of boredom. I like adventure, trips, hikes, nature, learning new things, exploring the city, states, the world together, that's why some can't keep up with me! I have no children and i'm 28 years old, so when I be ready to get up and go I have nothing to hold me back, but the world and people I surround myself with are different! It's like I can barely find a dude without children, who's willing to take those risks with me to just live and be free!!! So I find myself in situations... Sometimes I don't mind the life that comes with attachment but at times it can be hard to deal with. Especially because I don't bring that drama with me! I jus bring myself and that can be intimidating to the fellas! Some mentalities consider what do I have to stick around for, and they soon figure out it's for love! I enjoy the feeling of loving someone and having that feeling returned, I love to make him smile, make him feel good, some say I treat them like they are my children probaly because I have none! Lol I can't help the caring nature that I have! But know I still have alot to learn in love, and i'm in for the long haul ;-)
To Be Continued...
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